Spring

I think that I would rather not have winter. Yes you enjoy the warm weather more but even if you live in a state that does not have winter you would enjoy the summer because it does get a little chilly there still. The plus side is that you wouldn't have to deal with the snow and the cold which sucks! I would much rather live in Cali then here and one day I plan to. I guess we will see though because sometimes things do not line up and you don't always get what you want. Cali is much more expensive too so I would need to save up quite a bit of money. The snow is nice and pretty on occasion but only during the Christmas holiday. My plan is to move to Cali, enjoy the awesome weather and during Christmas and Thanksgiving come back to MN to enjoy the snow. Ironically I came up with this plan while being smacked in the face by snow day after day this winter.

So today I find out if I need surgery on my sinus or not because I have 2 fractures in it. I had a CT scan done and now the doctor is going to look at it with a scope :/ I'm a little scared about that because it does not sound like a pleasant experience. I just hope that I will not need surgery. It definitely has caused a lot of problems though, I have been up the past two nights coughing due to the drainage and also my nose will not stop running. At least last night I went to sleep with a water bottle in my bed because it helps me to stop coughing. I feel bad for my roommate though because I do not want my coughing to wake her up. Well hopefully it will be solved after today. I do not know if I will ever want to play rugby again. After breaking my thumb and now my face it just sounds kind of scary to me. I do not want to do permanent damage to my face obviously, or any other part of my body for that matter.

Favorite Food

My favorite food when I was a child was chocolate, I would eat it ALL the time and I was known for eating it all the time. I still love chocolate but I dont know if I would call it my favorite food any more. Now I would say that my favorite food is either fake chicken fajitas or vegetarian lasagna. My tastes have definitely changed from when I was a child. I used to eat mustard, lettuce, and ketchup sandwiches all the time which I obviously would never even think to pick up now. Something that I like now that I didnt used to like is cottage cheese or fish, I used to hate them. I dont know why my tastes changed, maybe because I have an aquired taste for some things.

So this weekend we had a rugby tournament at Wayne State Nebraska and it was ok. The first day we had fun and won our two games but the second day we lost our game that would have brought us to the championship. I only played the first 5 min. because I got hurt. Me and another girl both went in for the tackle and her head hit my face. It gave me the worst head ache I have ever had in my life and I rode home with my parents. My face is very swollen and starting to bruise. Also my upper right teeth, lip, and nose are numb. Whenever I push one spot on my face it makes my lip tingle so I am kind of scared that I have nerve damage.

A Time My Opinion Mattered

Honestly the last time I think that my opinion really mattered was when I was interviewing for a job at New York & Co. The manager asked me many questions that I needed to answer and depending on the answers I gave she decided whether to hire me or not. I really can't remember a time other then that which when I think about it is probably pretty sad. It seems as though since I am a teenager that my opinion really has no place. The only opinions that really matter in our society are that of adults who hold power.

Lately I have been very worn out because of lack of sleep and it is really starting to catch up to me. Last night I got about three hours of sleep and today I have class from 8-2 and work at 3. At least tomorrow I have no class due to my professor being gone at a conference. I am sure that I will sleep the whole day!

So this weekend is our first rugby match for spring season and I am pretty nervous because I hold a new position then I did last semester. My new position handles the ball a lot more and is actually in the game a lot more. Yesterday at practice we worked on tackling and I got my head slammed on the ground. I have had a very bad head ache since then but I hope it is nothing too serious. We leave on Friday to drive to Wayne Nebraska then we play on Saturday and Sunday. It should be a lot of fun because there are 60 teams that will be there, even people all the way from Texas. I guess the girls on the team from Texas are huge which kind of scares me a little bit because we have not dealt with that many huge girls yet this year.

Note to the Parent

After reading this letter I began to wonder if it was a real letter. I have seen something like this in a TV show I watched. If some teachers really are like this then they probably should not be teachers because they are on a pretty big power trip. In the show I watched a student got expelled for being right and going against a teacher. The parents ended up getting involed and going against the teachers to get their child back into school. I don't remember the show completely but I think it ended up having some sort of moral in it.

So today I am very tired! Yesterday I had a pretty long day, I woke up, took a midterm in Psych, went to my interview (which I rocked haha), went to rugby, then I finished my critique paper. Lets just say that tonight will be just a lot of relaxing. I do not have Psych tomorrow since we already took our midterm so I do not have class at all. I will probably end up sleeping in until 2 if my roommate doesn't wake me up. We have been having some problems with that lately. Whenever I take a nap or something she always is really loud and ends up waking me up. It has really been getting on my nerves but I do not know how to bring it up to her. It is very unfair because I am always very respectful and quiet when she sleeps. So the other day I kind of got revenge and was really loud when she took a nap.

Weather :/

So basically this weather really sucks! I hate how it gets so warm then it gets extremely cold the NEXT day! I didn't mind it all that much but now that there is a ton of ice everywhere it is making it really hard to walk or run outside without slipping. I wish that I lived in Cali. I was going to transfer there next year but in all the Cali schools that I looked at you have to have a Jr standing to apply for transfer; so instead, I am transferring to a place that is even colder then MN, Madison WI. Don't get me wrong, I am very excited to go there and all but lets just say, it's no California. I still think that I will end up there though because I really want to become a marine biologist. To do that I obviously need to live by an ocean of some sorts. Im not exactly sure what I want to do as a marine biologist yet though, there were a couple of things that I am interested in. I am interested in taking pictures of coral and underwater life, saving animals such as seals, training dolphins, and much more. I am going to meet with an adviser at WI over spring break and try to decide what my major should be for now since we do not have Marine Biology here. I think I will probably end up majoring in Biology or Zoology for now but I am not sure.

Being a college student is rough. Between deciding on a major and career path and balancing your work and personal life it gets a little tough at times. Currently I am completely out of money so I was extatic when I got a call from the clothing store, New York & Co. I am to go to an interview on Monday and we will see from there! It is kind of weird because I applied for jobs about a month ago and it took the places this long to get back to me. I had an interview at the Y recently and I got the job but I decided to turn it down because the hire was mainly for Saturday mornings teaching swimming lessons and I do not want to give up playing rugby and going to see my friends and boyfriend. So when I got the call yesterday it really made me feel a lot better for turning down the other job.

A Book That Changed My Perspective

Lance Armstrong's It's not about the bike: My journey back to life truly changed my perspective on life. Before reading the book I knew about Armstrong but not to the extent that I did after reading his book. He is a very strong individual that fought his way back to the top after having cancer. All the way through his cancer he rarely showed a sign of weakness and he always did whatever he could to make the cancer go away, whether that meant eating certain food or getting the best specialist possible. After reading the book it made me feel stupid for being down on myself at all because there are plenty of people who have it worse off then me. If Armstrong can build his self up from virtually nothing then surely I can keep my head up after a loss of a track race or of a favored pet. This book was very inspirational and it was hard to put it down. He makes you want to do something extraordinary with your life. Anyone really can do anything they want, I will never doubt that again after reading Lance Armstrong's book.

On another topic, EVERYONE is getting sick including me. One of my friends that lives in gage said that literally everyone on her floor is sick with the flu and now it's really starting to spread. At first my roommate and I thought that people were getting sick now instead of the middle of the winter. We decided that so many people are probably sick because of the changing weather, the fact that it can be super warm one day then freezing and snowing the next really does a tole on a person. We just wish the snow would go away! I tried going to rugby practice yesterday but i ended up having to leave early because I thought I was going to throw up. At least winter is almost over though. I wish I could go to Florida like my sister for spring break! She is lucky, I do not have enough money to do that so I am just going to the U to see my friends then going to Madison to see my boyfriend. It should still be pretty fun though.

Media affecting my world

First of all, today is my birthday whooo! Actually im not that excited because it is not really a monumental changing of age, only 18 to 19 but what the heck, whoo!

All my life some type of media has been influencing me whether it was Blues Clues or it was De Vince Code. Almost as soon as we are born new media is brought into our lives. At first our parents do the best they can to screen what we see, therefore what influences us, but as we get older the screening becomes less and less. I have been choosing what to watch on TV, what movies to go to, and what music I want to listen to for quite sometime now. I believe that almost everything I have seen or heard has had some impact on my life, it may not be a huge impact all of the time but that does not really matter. The rapper that has really touched me the most would be Lil Wayne. He grew to where he is today all on his own. Starting out in the poorest part of New Orleans he talked himself into a recording studio to create his first album at age 12. Since then he has gone through very hard times and he makes his music portray his life. Even though Lil Wayne has made it big and is no longer poor he still has not forgotten where he came from. When the hurricane hit he donated money to a park that he used to play on as a child. Recently I went to one of his concerts and that showed me just how much he loves his music and how much he cares about the things in his songs. Some of the songs that he is known for are not the songs I am necessarily talking about. Most of the songs that most people see, the people that do not know anything of Lil Wayne past the songs that are on the radio, are not the songs I am talking about. Lollipop is a good song but it is not one of his deepest so often people think that he is just a vulgar rapper and has no meaning behind his songs but they are very wrong. His latest tour is called the I am Music tour and that is just it, he is his music, all his songs are about him and portray his life.

Randomness

The other day I met this girl in my Psychology class and she seemed normal and fun for the most part. We talked of how we havent really found a set group yet here at MSU and exchanged numbers. Coming into class the next day I sat by her and we began to talk. It was not until then that it really hit me how different peoples life stories can be and how everyone has insecurities or has had hard times in their lives. My friend, we'll call her Daisy, explained to me how her dad was sick so she was living at home this year an hour and a half away. I was surprised when she told me this so I asked how her dad got sick and she told me how her 17 year old brother had killed himself this past summer and how her father became extremely depressed. Hearing this I did not know what to say next because I have never really been put in a situation like this. Trying to meander away from the subject I began to talk about sports and asked if she had played in any in high school. She told me she was in a few then told me how she is "kind of" addicted to exercising. Apparently she runs 10 miles a day then goes on the bike then lifts. Even when it was freezing out she ran outside. I hate how there is a constant pressure from today's media that says that teenagers, women in particular, must be perfect and not have an ounce of fat.

Pet Peeve

I would have to say that my biggest pet peeve is either when people put their feet on the back of my chair or when people shake their leg making your desk move too. They both seem like little things but when your trying to concentrate or just pay attention it is really annoying! The feet on the back of the chair is probably the worst because every little move of the feet is a big tap to the sitter. To avoid it I try scooting my chair up so they can not reach it or if their feet are on there I will make it obvious that it is annoying me like I might glance at their feet or scooch my chair up when their feet are on it. After a while people usually get the point.

So lately our TV has not been working in our dorm room and it is getting really annoying. The reason it does not work is because we dropped the remote so the batteries came out and now it needs to be reprogrammed to the TV. Somehow our TV got switched to these weird channels and there are only like four of them. The thing is is we can not change the channels back without the remote and our Phillips Universal remote is the only one without a manual online and of course we do not have it in our room either. So we have been trying to find this certain blog that explains how to reprogram it, this has happened before and we found the blog but now we can't find it this time. We were debating getting a new remote but if we do that we aren't sure how to change it back to the normal channels because their is a certain button on our remote.

Theory

When I was getting ready for class the other morning it seemed that everything was going wrong, I hit my head at least three times, I kept dropping things, and I kept forgetting where I placed my different items that I needed. All along the way I kept telling myself I am going to have a good day, repeating it in my head as if trying to remember something important. Throughout that day that's what I would repeat as bad things would continue to happen to me. You are probably wondering why my blog is named theory, well, this is my theory; if you continue to explain to yourself how good of a day your going to have, you will. Even if every little thing could go wrong. As long as you are determined to have a good day. Suddenly after telling myself what a good day I was going to have I was in a better mood. That day ended up being great.

On the other hand, have you ever had the day where it seems like everyone is out to get you? That seems to have been the day of my roommate yesterday. It seemed like everything I said or did was wrong. We have our little fights but sometimes it seems that she is just ungrateful. Don't get me wrong, she is one of my best friends and I would never trade roommates. It just bothers me when she puts all the blame for certain things on me. The other day she had a fight with her boyfriend but ended up taking it out on me. I guess people just need an outsource for their anger and I was hers for that day. Oh well, life goes on.

What do I expect this semester

This semester I want to learn new writing styles and learn how to improve my writing. I expect to gain a greater knowledge on how to write effectively. A lot of my knowledge of writing comes from my high school AP English class and I would like to take it a step up from there. I hope to learn what I am doing wrong and what I am doing right. From my instructor I hope to have access to help whenever needed and my questions answered. For myself I hope to just improve my writing like I said.

New topic completely, I would like to write about my weekend. On Monday I went to the Lil Wayne concert and it was amazing. My boyfriend bought us really good tickets for Christmas. My favorite artists of the night were T Pain and Lil Wayne. The other singers were Keisha Cole, Gym Class Heros, and Keri Hilson. When T Pain and Lil Wayne were on the stage together that was the best part. During T Pain's songs the stage was set up like a circus because that is the name of his album. He explained the roles of the people in the circus as they relate to the music industry. Not only did he have the background of the circus but also people were dressed up as circus people and he even had midgets jump out of a box and dance.